About to Begin

So nervous!  I've rumbled through the box o'meds and pulled out the correct syringe, taken the seal off the lupron, and have the alcohol swabs ready.  And dinner ready. Of course, the Hubs opted to eat dinner and watch Jeopardy before we embark on this last leg of our journey.

Let's look at the highlights, shall we?  Multiple IUI's, the use of Femara and Clomid, month after month of disappointment, then despair, then numbness.

I'm kinda there now. It's like I will go through these shots and we'll see.  I have worry and hope and nerves, but at this point, today, I just want to get through all the procedures.  I've had procedure after procedure, drug after drug, not result in a pregnancy.  This is it.  We have a multicycle plan - two IVF cycles, two FET cycles. Then we're done.  For good.  I figure that by the end of 2012, I will no longer have to plan my life around a "what if?" and that, in itself, is worth going through all of this.