I'm starting to get nervous. And excited. Tomorrow is it! Transfer!
I'm hydrating like a mad woman tonight. I'll have to go ten hours without food or beverage until I get that blessed saline IV. I even tried coconut water - eeeewwwwww. I'll have to try it flavored I know that it's supposed to give lots of natural electrolytes and Vitamin C, both great for my body right now, but I'll go back to my smart water.
I'm going to take it easy. Got my Project Runway on, going to take a nice bath since I can't have scents on me tomorrow. (I worry about my breath since I'm not supposed to brush my teeth, and don't get me started on the lack of deodorant and anxiety sweat.) I've got Bud in our bed tonight for snuggling, a good book, and my Beecher's Mac & Cheese and some asparagus to steam for my after transfer lunch.
I'm ready, I'm prepared, I don't know what else to do... someone! tell me what else to do to keep myself busy! I think I'll go nuts waiting. Particularly because I'm more optimistic than I've been.
I suspect I'll know by this time next week one way or the other. But the question is - will I tell anyone else??
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Monday, January 28, 2013
Hit Me with Your Last Shot
Oh, yeah, baby, last shot was last night! I've chosen not to do acupuncture this time around, and I've only had to have one shot a night for the last month. Til tonight - with no shots!
I did start progesterone and upped the metformin to two a day. I'm trying everything. I'm on the prenatals, the Vitamin D, Mag citrate, 5mg metholated folate, baby aspirin, blood pressure medications, asthma medications, and I'm sure I'm forgetting something I need to start putting all my pills into those bins truly old people use. And I'll need three a day. oh, and I'm on estrace each night.
This all seems rather anticlimactic I suppose that's why I haven't been blogging about it. It's much more gentle. I'm also not as wrapped up in it. We know that there is an embryo. We don't have to see how many, or if it will go to five days, etc. Questions have been answered, tests have been completed. Move along, nothing to see here. Well, unless you count the fact that we still don't know if the embryo will implant!!
I have the frozen embryo transfer this upcoming Friday, Feb. 1, 2013.
I did end up having the endometrial biopsy. I have since seen a meta study that shows of the five studies, @550 women had this procedure and the results, although small, were consistent. The live birth rate was DOUBLED with this procedure. So, early January, I had this procedure under anesthesia. I'd read some horror stories about it, so those, coupled with my tendency to have painful procedures, led me to choose anesthesia. And my insurance paid for it. Oh, yeah, baby! Pain management in action. I woke up with some intense cramping/contractions that dissipated mostly by that evening and had only clusters for the next week. My own surgeon classified the procedure as "intense".
I'm getting excited. I daydream about telling people, how long I'll wait, if i'll wait, do I surprise family and friends other places by visiting, etc. I'm optimistic. Which I wasn't for a long time, and now I am.
Overall, this has been a much more gentle, less stressful procedure. Although I say less stressful, I've definitely had my basketcase moments caused by hormones - emotional flare ups that are unlike what i had during the IVF protocol despite both having lupron. I have been depressed, moody, anxious, flighty, spacey, easily angered and easily frustrated. I've been on edge and hard to talk down and even had a major panic attack one day, all day, and then emotionally vomited on a group of friends (at least it wasn't physical vomiting, because that has typically happened with panic attacks in the past and it ain't pretty even when I'm the only witness).
However, my body doesn't feel like it's had as much to go through. I've also cleared my schedule more. I quit my very slight part time job, I chose not to add in the acupuncture this time, I did not pursue the yoga or nutrition classes and I've not had to have so many tests. It's made a major difference in the way I feel about this. At one point, I was lucky to have two hours unscheduled, free! in a day a couple times a week. I don't count sleeping and eating because you really have to do that to survive, you know? I realized that I had to make some major shifts. Also, that this running amok thing might be a contributing factor to the lack of baby.
I'm now in part two of my SET FET protocol. Yes, SET - single embryo transfer. I'm not up for twins, the family isn't up for twins, the stats show that it only increases chances by maybe 5% - 10%. And, if after all this, we're still not pregnant, we have one more try. But I'm not thinking about that, just this project. I almost wrote "round", but that makes it sound like we're going to do this again soon. Don't think that's likely.
Famous last words.
I did start progesterone and upped the metformin to two a day. I'm trying everything. I'm on the prenatals, the Vitamin D, Mag citrate, 5mg metholated folate, baby aspirin, blood pressure medications, asthma medications, and I'm sure I'm forgetting something I need to start putting all my pills into those bins truly old people use. And I'll need three a day. oh, and I'm on estrace each night.
This all seems rather anticlimactic I suppose that's why I haven't been blogging about it. It's much more gentle. I'm also not as wrapped up in it. We know that there is an embryo. We don't have to see how many, or if it will go to five days, etc. Questions have been answered, tests have been completed. Move along, nothing to see here. Well, unless you count the fact that we still don't know if the embryo will implant!!
I have the frozen embryo transfer this upcoming Friday, Feb. 1, 2013.
I did end up having the endometrial biopsy. I have since seen a meta study that shows of the five studies, @550 women had this procedure and the results, although small, were consistent. The live birth rate was DOUBLED with this procedure. So, early January, I had this procedure under anesthesia. I'd read some horror stories about it, so those, coupled with my tendency to have painful procedures, led me to choose anesthesia. And my insurance paid for it. Oh, yeah, baby! Pain management in action. I woke up with some intense cramping/contractions that dissipated mostly by that evening and had only clusters for the next week. My own surgeon classified the procedure as "intense".
I'm getting excited. I daydream about telling people, how long I'll wait, if i'll wait, do I surprise family and friends other places by visiting, etc. I'm optimistic. Which I wasn't for a long time, and now I am.
Overall, this has been a much more gentle, less stressful procedure. Although I say less stressful, I've definitely had my basketcase moments caused by hormones - emotional flare ups that are unlike what i had during the IVF protocol despite both having lupron. I have been depressed, moody, anxious, flighty, spacey, easily angered and easily frustrated. I've been on edge and hard to talk down and even had a major panic attack one day, all day, and then emotionally vomited on a group of friends (at least it wasn't physical vomiting, because that has typically happened with panic attacks in the past and it ain't pretty even when I'm the only witness).
However, my body doesn't feel like it's had as much to go through. I've also cleared my schedule more. I quit my very slight part time job, I chose not to add in the acupuncture this time, I did not pursue the yoga or nutrition classes and I've not had to have so many tests. It's made a major difference in the way I feel about this. At one point, I was lucky to have two hours unscheduled, free! in a day a couple times a week. I don't count sleeping and eating because you really have to do that to survive, you know? I realized that I had to make some major shifts. Also, that this running amok thing might be a contributing factor to the lack of baby.
I'm now in part two of my SET FET protocol. Yes, SET - single embryo transfer. I'm not up for twins, the family isn't up for twins, the stats show that it only increases chances by maybe 5% - 10%. And, if after all this, we're still not pregnant, we have one more try. But I'm not thinking about that, just this project. I almost wrote "round", but that makes it sound like we're going to do this again soon. Don't think that's likely.
Famous last words.
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